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Special Needs Spotlight || Jonas


Thanks for the opportunity to
share a little bit about my family, Miggy! My name is Kristina. I’ve been
married to my wonderful husband Chris for close to 12 years now, and we have
two children: Brenna (8) and Jonas (5). My husband is an editor, and I do freelance
editing from home.
Jonas was diagnosed with
Rhabdomyosarcoma, a fairly rare form of childhood cancer (about 300 new cases
are diagnosed each year in the U.S.), when he was 3 years old. He’d had what we
thought was a sinus infection that just wasn’t going away, and I knew there had
to be something else going on.  I’d prayed for guidance, and suddenly
remembered that he’d stuck a raisin up his nose about a month before.  I took him back to the pediatrician and asked
if perhaps his problems could be because I missed a piece or another could be
stuck up there.  The doctor agreed that
it was a possibility, so sent us over to get an ENT doctor to take a look.  No raisin, but they found “polyps” in his
nose.  A piece happened to fall out, and
the doctor decided to have it biopsied, even though that wasn’t standard
procedure.  Jonas had trouble with the
anesthesia they used to knock him out to look up his nose, and we ended up
staying in the hospital overnight.  The
next day, we knew there would have to be further testing, but cancer wasn’t
even on anyone’s radar.  About half an hour before we were supposed to
head home, the results from the biopsy came back.  Cancer.
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Miggy:  Hi Kristina, thank you so much for
participating in todays spotlight.  I can only imagine there are few
things scarier than being told your child has cancer.  Can you take me
back to the day your son was diagnosed–do you remember how you felt?  Can
you compare those first thoughts and feelings with how you feel now?
Kristina:  My first reaction was shock.  My body started shaking
and I couldn’t get warm.  The nurses had
to bring me several warmed blankets because I was shivering so badly.  It was really strange—my body just shut down,
and my mind wouldn’t stop racing.  I was
alone with Jonas when the doctor told me the news because Chris was at home
with Brenna.  I quickly gave him a call
and let him know he needed to come to the hospital right away.  Luckily,
we had a close friend nearby who was willing to take Brenna for a few hours.
I was
so afraid, because there were so many unknowns.  We didn’t know how far the cancer had spread,
what his chances of survival were, what the future would hold for our sweet
little boy.  Jonas has always been a bundle of energy, and I was afraid
the cancer and the treatments would take that away from him.   I worried about how everything would
affect Brenna, too, since I knew we’d have to spend a lot of time focusing on
Jonas’s needs.
Now,
while I still worry that he’ll relapse and that the cancer will come back, I
know that Jonas is a fighter, and that we can get through so much when we come
together as a family.  It was strange how
quickly his treatments and medications just became part of our normal reality.  Jonas was still Jonas and many friends and
family members helped us to help Brenna feel loved and included.
Miggy:  Cancer–like so many conditions–presents
differently in each person.  Tell us about your sons particular form of
cancer and the treatments, procedures and care-taking that was
involved during this time. 
Kristina:  Rhabdomyosarcoma is a striated muscle tumor cancer.  It’s more often found in boys, usually between
the ages of 1 and 6.  Jonas’s tumor was
growing off the back of the septum in his nose.  His was the embryonic
type (more favorable prognosis) in an unfavorable site (parameningeal cavity).  We were very lucky to find it when we did,
because it hadn’t spread far beyond the main tumor site yet.
Because
he was 3, I was with him for everything, and would stay with him during his
hospital stays.  Many of the doctors would let me stay during his various
procedures and scans, too, which I was happy about.  It’s not fun to watch, but I felt like I
needed to witness everything so I could answer any questions Jonas might have,
both now and in the future.  It was hard on Brenna, because she was in
kindergarten, and Jonas and I were away at the hospital a lot.  Luckily, we live only 7 minutes away from our
hospital, so she was able to come visit, as well as spend a lot of time with
friends and Chris.
Jonas
had to have bone marrow biopsies, MRIs, and PET/CT scans to help determine his
treatment.  First, there was surgery, to
de-bulk the tumor.  They couldn’t take
all of it, because of where it was.  They
also took his adenoids out and put ear tubes in as preventative measures. He
had 24 weeks of chemotherapy treatments, and 20 days of radiation therapy.  Four of the chemo treatments were hospital
stays because one of the chemo drugs they were using burns the bladder if the
patient isn’t super over-hydrated, and IV fluids are the easiest way to help
with that.
He
also had a port put in, on the right side of his chest.  This is so they wouldn’t have to keep putting
in IV lines into his various veins—he just had one central line installed, and
they could access it through the port each time. 
The
hospital and the pediatric oncology clinic became our second home.  He had
three different chemotherapy drugs, all with their own host of nasty side
effects.  One causes nerve damage.  For
several months, Jonas physically could not lift his eyelids all the way up, and
the drug can cause pins and needles feelings in the hands and feet, among other
issues. 
The
radiation was the hardest part.  He had to go under anesthesia every day
during the 20 days of radiation therapy (when you are only 3, it’s hard to lay
still as long as you need to, added to the fact that the head is held in place
by a plastic mask that is bolted to the table), and the radiation caused raw
red sores throughout his mouth and throat.  Even though we gave him oxycodone multiple
times a day, eating, even soft foods, was torture—he’d take a bite, chew and
swallow, then scream in pain. Then he’d do it again because he needed to
eat.  At the beginning of his treatment, he was 33.5 pounds.  I think he went down to 29 pounds throughout
his treatment.
I
think all told, he had three surgeries, 6 overnight hospital stays, 24 weeks of
treatment (that lasted 27 weeks, because several times he didn’t have high
enough counts to receive treatment), 2 blood transfusions, 20 days of
radiation, so many scans I’ve lost track, and countless pokes and blood draws.
For a
while, Jonas’s energy was so low, especially when his blood counts tanked, but
his determination helped me be strong. It was really hard to see how sick the
medicines made him, and how much pain we were inflicting on him in order to
give him a chance to heal and live, but it was the only way, so we did it.
Miggy:  Fortunately Jonas has been cancer free for 16
months!  Yay!  What is life like post-cancer?  Do you still have
regular check ups and appointments? 
Kristina:  Life post-cancer is slowly returning to a semblance of
normal, which is nice.  The first year, he had checkups every 6 weeks,
with MRI and PET/CT scans every other appointment.  This year, he has
checkups every 2 months, with scans every other appointment, and we’re about to
move to checkups every 3 months, with scans every other appointment. If Jonas
makes it to 5 years without a recurrence of the cancer, he’ll be declared cured
and will only have blood work done once a year, along with a normal check up.
That will be a month or two before he turns 8, if all goes well.
                                                                                                          
Miggy:  What are the biggest worries you face for
Jonas at this point?   
Kristina:  The biggest worries I face for Jonas right now are
recurrence and long-term side effects.  Every scan day is scary for me,
because I’m always afraid they’ll tell me that the cancer is back!  Also,
many possible side-effects, if they show up, can take years to do so.
Currently,
he’s been very lucky. The only long term side effect we know he has is that the
mucus membranes in his nasal area were damaged, so colds stick around a long
time because the mucus can’t move properly. He also has to have a humidifier in
his room every night, or he gets nose bleeds. He also needs to use saline spray
to help his nose work properly (as a side effect, I’ll take it!).
Because
the radiation was aimed at his face, damage to the growth plates is possible,
so his face might not grow properly. Dental issues are a probability, too.
Also, learning disabilities are a possibility because of the radiation being
near his brain. Those sorts of problems, if they do happen for him, won’t show
up until school (he starts school in the fall). 
He also has to see an endocrinologist every year, until at least
puberty, because the thyroid could be affected.  Several of his chemo drugs could also cause
sterility, and they also can cause secondary cancers.
It’s
hard not knowing the long-term ramifications of his treatment.  But, looking at how healthy and happy he
currently is, I’m just glad he’s here to have potential problems.  Much better than the alternative.
Miggy:  Now for a lighter question, I’m a big
believer in seeing the humor in life and learning to laugh, so have you ever
had any funny conversations/moments you never imagined due to your special
needs situation?
Kristina:  One of my favorite was right at the beginning of Jonas’s
treatment.  After the surgery to de-bulk the tumor, we found out that
Jonas did have a sinus infection—it just couldn’t clear up before because the
tumor was blocking the sinuses.  Once the
tumor was out of the way, the infection cleared up.  Jonas ran in to his next appointment and said
“Doctor Bob!  Guess what?  My sinus infection is gone! Now all I have is
cancer!”  He was so excited about it.   Also, when we met the
radiation oncologist for the first time, he was asking us questions.  One was something like “Is Jonas generally
healthy?”  Jonas gave him the side-eye and spoke very slowly and
clearly.  “I have cancer. It’s called Rhabdomyosarcoma. You need to give
me radiation to fix it!”  He clearly was not sure this was the right
doctor if he thought Jonas was healthy!  (Jonas practiced saying the name
of his cancer until he could get it right).
  
Miggy:  What would your advice be for those who are
wondering how they can best support families going through a situation like
this?  Is there something you wish other people knew so as to avoid
awkward or hurtful situations? 
Kristina:  It was so helpful when people asked if they could do
specific tasks, because sometimes it was hard to call people for help
otherwise.  I had a friend who came over and helped me scrub all my walls
when we were sanitizing the house, since Jonas’s immune system was so
compromised. Other friends made meals for us on clinic days, knowing that being
at the hospital wore us out and we didn’t have the energy to cook.  Also, if there are siblings, it’s really nice
to remember them, too.  Jonas got a lot
of very sweet, thoughtful gifts when he was diagnosed, and sometimes Brenna
felt left out.  When people acknowledged that she was affected, too, and
paid attention to her as well, it really helped keep our family more balanced.
I
wish people would be willing to ask questions if they are curious, rather than
staring and whispering.  Jonas wore a mask when we were out in public to
help keep him from getting sick with secondary infections. He hated when people
would just stare at him, but he loved telling them all about his treatments if
they talked to him.  Also, while I know people mean well, sending links
about miracle cures that doctors don’t want you to know about, or about how
processed foods cause cancer aren’t helpful. 
I think people sometimes feel helpless when they are presented with
illness like this, and grasp at anything to try to make it better.  But really, we’d rather have had an
acknowledgement that yes, this was hard, and that they loved us and were there
for us.  We didn’t need them to fix the
problem, just share the emotional load with us sometimes.
Miggy:  What is the biggest lesson you’ve learned
since going through this cancer journey?   

Kristina:  I think I learned several big lessons!  I learned that life is so very precious, and
that you can handle a whole lot more than you ever thought you could when
that’s the only option.  Also, that
little kids are fighters and that we can learn an awful lot from them on how to
handle adversity.  I also learned how to
be the advocate for Jonas I needed to be to have his needs met.  For example, he was willing to go along with
pretty much any procedure the doctors wanted, as long as they were willing to
explain to him what they were doing and the reason for it in simple, but not
babyish, language.  I learned that, as small
as he was, he still wanted to feel in control and it was my job to help him by
articulating his needs to each set of medical professionals.
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Kristina, thank you.  That was wonderful.  I was laughing at Jonah’s exciting proclamation, “My sinus infection is gone, now all I have in cancer!”  So funny and sweet.  I also appreciate that you reached out to me in the first place, because while cancer isn’t typically thought of as ‘special needs’ I’ve learned to expand my definition of what ‘special needs’ means.  An illness as all consuming as cancer, certainly throws a family’s life up in the air–and you had some great advice that can translate for many families going through a difficult time with one of their children.  Don’t forget the sibling!  As much as I appreciate people showering Lamp with kindness I feel sad when her big sister stands by time and time again completely unnoticed.  Such good advice for people who want to know how to help.  And yes to being your child’s advocate!  Thanks again Kristina.  

As always if you or someone you know would like to participate in the special needs spotlight series please email me, or have them email me directly at thislittlemiggy at gmail dot com.  
And please email me soon!  I’m in need of some new spotlights! 

Have a great weekend!
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