Fall

Oh the bitter winds are coming in and I’m already missing the summer.  Stockholm’s cold, but I’ve been told that I was born to endure this kind of weather.    –Emmylou, by First Aid Kit

Sometime last week we started bundling up pretty well each morning as we walk PSP down to the bus stop.  Often by the late afternoon the weather has warmed up substantially, sometimes being hot even, leaving me tugging at my sweater and pulling off extra layers to absorb the last bit of this indian summer.  I’ve been saying for years how I’ve missed the fall and that I can’t wait to see snow again.  But now that the colds almost here, I’m not sure I’m ready.  I’ve talked a big game, but I’m realizing that San Antonio has made me soft to cold weather.

Fall is a season not really appreciated until you’re grown up–at least that was the case for me.  I always considered myself a die-hard summer loving girl until sometime my mid 20’s when I distinctly remember craving fall for the first time.  Sure the clothes are great–boots, sweaters, hats, scarves.  But fall is what sends you inside literally and figuratively as well.  Summer is outside, playful, fun loving and free spirited.  Fall is moody, introspective, unpredictable and thoughtful.  This desire for fall brought a shift in life perspective as well.  In a word–balance.  For a long time I wanted life to be summer all the time.  Figuratively at least, which is to say fun and free spirited.  But my mind and my spirit crave introspection, slowing down and even some dreary days.  After our first really intense summer in San Antonio we had a mild fall and winter and it seemed like summer was upon us again before we knew it.  I said to B, I’m not ready for summer.  We haven’t earned it yet.  I don’t remember feeling the same way the following summers… I’d gone soft.

While I’ve been waiting and craving this weather for years, now that it’s here… I’m feeling hesitant.  Probably because I’m in a more fall phase of life right now as well and I worry that I’ve gone soft in more ways than one.  But as the lyrics state above, I think we’re all born to endure this kind of weather.

On the plus side, the colors are blowing my mind.

Here are some of my favorite fall pictures so far.   If you follow me on instagram you’ve probably seen a lot of these.  You can follow me at thislittlemiggy.